How could three months possibly go so quickly? Since Cecilia was born, the days seem to fly by with diaper changes, soothing sessions, feedings, crying, bathing, and bedtime. Then we wake up and do it all over again. During it all, my return to work date always seemed to loom over my head. I have always wanted to be a working mother but there are definite advantages and disadvantages to being one. Finally at three months, Cecilia has become much more interactive and wants to see everything that is going on around her. She squeals with delight at our songs and stories, she watches us whenever we come into or leave a room and she yawns with us when its time to go to bed. So just when she is now becoming the little person, its time for Mike and I to go back to work. It seems unfair.
Then there is the daycare situation. Personally, I don’t like the idea of passing my child off to someone else to “educate” them. Something feels very wrong about it. This week we had a daycare issue where our original choice fell through and we had to scramble to find a new place. The new school is down the street and the people there seem very nice. However, I still don’t feel that any place is good enough for Cecilia. So now it is time to go back to work. I am hoping that once I start work again that I will be able to find the balance that so many Moms are forced to seek. One day at a time is going to be my motto for the next few weeks, but it doesn’t mean that I still won’t cry when I have to drop her off at school on Wednesday.